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Oh god NO I am so mad. I just GOD I just I dont know My bastard dad! And PMS! And just every little thing that's piled on top of me these past few weeks... Grades! Kennett! Every goddamn ROMANTIC fucking piece of shit, everything is just ON TOP OF ME not even The Commotion could save my sorry ass this time. I'm thinking of not printing anymore. It's all Greg's fault. jaxmirkinrevenge: :-( Shortguy613: eh? :_: jaxmirkinrevenge: I'm. So. Upset. Shortguy613: Why? =( Shortguy613: =l jaxmirkinrevenge: GAH jaxmirkinrevenge: My dad's just giving me all this shit jaxmirkinrevenge: I hate him Shortguy613: = Shortguy613: why? --; Shortguy613: is he doing that? jaxmirkinrevenge: i dunno jaxmirkinrevenge: I was just talking about how stupid the teen driving law was and how I'd probably break it jaxmirkinrevenge: Not the driving after midnight part, the part where I pick up Kathy and drive her around because she can't take the bus to the other part of towjn jaxmirkinrevenge: And he starts saying how if I'm caught my license will be revoked jaxmirkinrevenge: And I argue with him that there's no way I'll be caught, because police officers don't pull you over because they assume you've had yourlicense for under 6 months, and even if i did get pulled over, you dont' get your license revoked, you get a fine, you go to traffic school, that's it jaxmirkinrevenge: And he starts saying all kinds of shit things jaxmirkinrevenge: Oh How i Hate Him Shortguy613: =( jaxmirkinrevenge: Oh I just need to jaxmirkinrevenge: I have no idea jaxmirkinrevenge: I feel like a very confused and angry little kid. Shortguy613: ehh.. well, i wouldn't pay any attention to him Shortguy613: I mean seriously jaxmirkinrevenge: I guess it's just all the little things piled up on top of each other though jaxmirkinrevenge: Him, and everything else going on Shortguy613: they have more problems pms'ing than we do jaxmirkinrevenge: Frustrating. Shortguy613: erm Shortguy613: you know what i mean jaxmirkinrevenge: Yeah ha ha jaxmirkinrevenge: if I had a door I'd slam it Shortguy613: i wish I had one too.... jaxmirkinrevenge: lol, at least I have stairs jaxmirkinrevenge: Sorry Shortguy613: ? Shortguy613: why? Shortguy613: wait jaxmirkinrevenge: sorry you don't have a door Shortguy613: you used lol?! Shortguy613: aiya! Shortguy613: you're apologizing! jaxmirkinrevenge: Shut up Shortguy613: = jaxmirkinrevenge: about the lol thing jaxmirkinrevenge: If you must know, I did not really laugh out loud. If you must know, at this point it would take a lot for me to laugh. But I used it as a default and as an appreciation for your effort. Shortguy613: ehh Shortguy613: alright jaxmirkinrevenge: yes I am apologizing. Because sometimes people do that, you know? Even me, though clearly it seems that I would be incapable of that, as stone cold Stephanie. jaxmirkinrevenge: And here I am apologizing again for my tyrade of sarcasm because I am currently pissed off. jaxmirkinrevenge: Sorry jaxmirkinrevenge: ::::sigh:::::: Shortguy613: =( Shortguy613: don't worry about it, you don't need to apologize to me Shortguy613: it's ok jaxmirkinrevenge: Well it's not like it's some huge DEAL or something! jaxmirkinrevenge: I do it occasionally, you know? I'm apologizing cuz I feel sorry jaxmirkinrevenge: Just accept it......please? Shortguy613: Alright Shortguy613: I do jaxmirkinrevenge: Oh my jaxmirkinrevenge: I just told Greg off jaxmirkinrevenge: That's a first Shortguy613: ehh jaxmirkinrevenge: Tell your bro happy birthday from me Shortguy613: hehe Shortguy613: alright Shortguy613: ^>^ jaxmirkinrevenge: i wanna get him something jaxmirkinrevenge: what would he want? Shortguy613: he's 7 jaxmirkinrevenge: um jaxmirkinrevenge: That doesn't help Shortguy613: i know Shortguy613: =l jaxmirkinrevenge: let's just say no Ngo is an average 7 year old Shortguy613: that's all I know Shortguy613: o.O; jaxmirkinrevenge: I'm thinking of not printing any more Commotions. Shortguy613: why not?! jaxmirkinrevenge: It's so little and stupid and pointless jaxmirkinrevenge: And I can't write worth a shit anyway Shortguy613: but you love doing it Shortguy613: omg Shortguy613: yes you can jaxmirkinrevenge: No I can't Shortguy613: you are an amazing writer Shortguy613: grr jaxmirkinrevenge: I am Not Shortguy613: stop doing that Shortguy613: :_: Shortguy613: =l jaxmirkinrevenge: None of those articles were worth a shit jaxmirkinrevenge: They were all terrible Shortguy613: Yes, They Are Shortguy613: People cared about them Shortguy613: and you sold out! Shortguy613: that has to say something Shortguy613: :_: jaxmirkinrevenge: REad them again in a criticizing light instead of a "this is stephanie" light and you'l see jaxmirkinrevenge: They sold out because of my male fan base wanting a hot naked chick on the back Shortguy613: that doesn't matter Shortguy613: they are still good jaxmirkinrevenge: I don't put enough effort into my writing when I've got to hurry like that, when I've got to write so much. And so I just crank out pointless shit jaxmirkinrevenge: That's not good jaxmirkinrevenge: I'm a fraud Shortguy613: now you're just putting yourself down :_: Shortguy613: godam, don't you ever read newpapers? jaxmirkinrevenge: Nobody sees how horrible it really is because of the sexy people in the middle of the goddamn article and the naked chick! They get caught up in the HYPE! It's cool, so they think it is! I'm just another part of the damn media, don't you see? jaxmirkinrevenge: The whole thing is fake! jaxmirkinrevenge: Nobody really likes it! Nobody thinks I'm a good writer at all jaxmirkinrevenge: Only one person saw how shitty it really is because he didn't fall for that hype, and he told me about it and now I see it all clear as day! Shortguy613: how on earth do you get that? Shortguy613: it's called criticism... you're going to get it regardless of how well it's written Shortguy613: sometimes, it just differs with opinion jaxmirkinrevenge: But he told me I could write better than that jaxmirkinrevenge: And I CAN jaxmirkinrevenge: And that's the point Shortguy613: then try, that's all you need to do Shortguy613: and it's fun jaxmirkinrevenge: it's really just all crap Shortguy613: so who cares? jaxmirkinrevenge: It's tiring jaxmirkinrevenge: And I've run out of ideas Shortguy613: but you -liked- it Shortguy613: what did they say to make you feel like that? Shortguy613: its not fair to -you- jaxmirkinrevenge: I don't know jaxmirkinrevenge: They didn't say much jaxmirkinrevenge: Actually.... he hardly said a thing at al' jaxmirkinrevenge: He just said that I should do my research before writing and that it wasn't a communist belief, it was a totalitarianist belief jaxmirkinrevenge: And I came to all the rest of the conclusions by myself Shortguy613: =( jaxmirkinrevenge: don't you think it's all just shit? jaxmirkinrevenge: The only real good articles in there were the ones I didn't make jaxmirkinrevenge: You guys' Shortguy613: no Shortguy613: yours are great as well Shortguy613: come on stephanie, the more you think about things, the worse they turn out in your mind Shortguy613: because all you can see are the flaws jaxmirkinrevenge: it's just another silly childish dream Shortguy613: but you did it jaxmirkinrevenge: i blew it way out of proportion Shortguy613: but it happened jaxmirkinrevenge: it wasn't really the success I thought it was, I was just so giddy that it seemed like it Shortguy613: but everyone wanted it jaxmirkinrevenge: like i said jaxmirkinrevenge: it's all just a trend Shortguy613: for the second time in a row? jaxmirkinrevenge: it's only been a month jaxmirkinrevenge: trends last a couple Shortguy613: then whats wrong with sticking with it? jaxmirkinrevenge: cuz it sucks jaxmirkinrevenge: thass why jaxmirkinrevenge: I dont' like producing crap and throwing it to the masses Shortguy613: it only sucks to you. jaxmirkinrevenge: It's like a crime against humanity Shortguy613: the don't produce crap anymore. Shortguy613: *then jaxmirkinrevenge: It's like pedalpushers jaxmirkinrevenge: They were crap and thrown upon many yuppies! jaxmirkinrevenge: Terrible stuff Shortguy613: =( jaxmirkinrevenge: ok pedalpushers weren't too bda jaxmirkinrevenge: How about those jeans that were faded like you peed bleach? jaxmirkinrevenge: Ok, those are sins against humanity. Shortguy613: ehh jaxmirkinrevenge: lord they're ugly Shortguy613: haha jaxmirkinrevenge: oh my god, I was having an ASS day today Shortguy613: =( jaxmirkinrevenge: Like I came across 3 of the biggest asses I've ever seen Shortguy613: o.o jaxmirkinrevenge: I swear they were as wide as about half of you jaxmirkinrevenge: 3/4. maybe jaxmirkinrevenge: lengthwise Shortguy613: ew... jaxmirkinrevenge: yeh Shortguy613: that's disgusting jaxmirkinrevenge: hah jaxmirkinrevenge: exactly jaxmirkinrevenge: sigh Shortguy613: ? jaxmirkinrevenge: i'm in a state of jaxmirkinrevenge: uh... it's a bad state jaxmirkinrevenge: feeling kind of illiterate a the moment jaxmirkinrevenge: thanks, though jaxmirkinrevenge: A lot Shortguy613: eh.... jaxmirkinrevenge: For the encouragemnt My journal is so FUCKING stupid. You know that? it's just so damn stupid. I can't phrase anything. I just put all my damn conversations in here to do the talking for me cuz I'm so fucking lazy. it's becaues I'm so fuckng lazy that I can't write like shit. That's why my vocabulary is absolute shit and I write like crap, I can't even write in my goddamn diary how can I have been publishing.... Oh god What have I done? |