Katherine,
I know you haven't realized it by now but if you think about it, you could probably think up a reason why I'm mad at you. You could probably think up a reason instead of having to leave messages to Greg. Why does everyone think Greg knows about and can solve their problems relating to me?

The reason I am mad isn't because I'm randomly insane, and I don't get pissed off like mad for no fucking reason.

First of all, I had assumed that there was an understood, unspoken pact between us that we would spend our vacations together. I'd let you know I needed you and you somehow let it come on that you needed me. The holy grail of all things was supposed to be summer. Nice job pretending all this when you cried to your dad about not being able to see me. You're a great actress, Katherine. This entire year you've led me on to believe that this summer was going to be great and we were going to do allll this crap. For one whole year I waited until this ideal, superb summer. Bullshit. You want to drop the bomb on me after a year of waiting, 3 weeks before school lets out? Wow, that's considerate. Now I've got three months ahead of me of total misery to fill up. What am I supposed to do? huh? I'll tell you what I WILL do, is watch television for 3..no, 4 months straight. I waited a year for that. Thanks. THANKS.

For three years, summers, winters, spring vacations I had offers to get a job, to go to Paris, Italy, Britain, Mexico, New York. Goddamn, I can't believe I turned down New York and Europe to stay home. STUPID ME! I actually thought about your feelings! I actually thought, "If I go, Kathy will be here alone and she'll be depressed and lonely. I can't do that to her. I'll stay. I have my whole life to go to New York and Europe." THE ONLY VACATION I TOOK FOR THREE YEARS WAS THREE WEEKS IN MALAYSIA. Well, I'll never get free rides to go there and stay with my family again because I'm distanced from my father now, but not one moment did I regret it until you ditched me. I give, give, give for you. We'll buy you food, I'll drive you wherever you want to go, mail you shit, burn you CDs, godDAMN, I said I'd take the fucking blame for you if we got caught shoplifting. None of that matters to you, does it? You KNOW i have abandonment issues, and you KNOW the ONLY THING I've ever asked from you, the only thing i've ever really wanted from you is your time. You're SO SELFISH. All you care about is your own sick little happiness.

It really shows where your priorities are, doesn't it? All this time you acted like we were like, the most important things to each other, or that was the impression you left upon me. But you are willing to throw that away for a three minute DANCE? REALLY? 3 MONTHS OF SUMMER AND 8 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP FOR A THREE MINUTE DANCE??????

I say, BULLSHIT. A fucking retarded little mormon dance. A church dance! Are you serious? Don't pull that Mormon card on me, either. I haven't given a shit whether you're a mormon or not pretty much ever. Its your own stupid paranoia which always makes yourself think i care. You don't want to drink coffee? FINE! I never made you. Soda? I REALLY DONT CARE! I DON'T! I'd be as pissed if it was a Chinese club dance or whatever. Maybe if it was nationally televised. Maybe if it was educational in some way. But your idea of "huge" is the Irvine community? Oh man, you really need something else to boost your ego. After the three minutes of dancing, do yo really think you'll feel so fulfilled? That this whole summer was worth it? That that was the greatest fucking three minutes of your life? I sure as hell wouldn't have thrown away you for FANTASTICS and that's a "huge" school event. After all, it's temporary. It's fleeting. It's pride.

I say, BULLSHIT. You aren't staying for your fucking dance. You're not that stupid, and neither am I. Why don't you tell me the goddamn truth? Why do you have to lie to me? What is it, you've got some little boy wrapped around your finger and you want to kisskiss him all summer long? Some girl you met is like the coolest friend ever? Well, just SAY it! Don't be a fucking pussy! Did you seriously think I'd be less pissed if you cited your goddamn dance?

What the hell is wrong with you? This is our last summer before we go to college, meet new people and change our whole fucking lives. This is the 17th summer. THIS IS THE SUMMER WEVE BEEN WAITING FOR FOR 4 YEARS. GODDAMMIT, ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're FAKE, a FAKE FAKE PRETENDER and a LIAR. Well, I WASNT FAKING IT AND I LOVED YOU, BITCH. A FAT LOT OF GOOD THAT DID ME!

fuck you.