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it's all uphill from here so I graduated. I ran and I was really hot and sweaty. Then we waited for a while and it started and we went in and there was all this massive "OH M GOD OH MY GOD ITS TIME" type deal siht and everyone was clapping and freaking out. When I walked in, it was pretty fucking amazing. It was intense. Overwhelming I guess is a good adjective. There was like 8 thousand people (approx....maybe 6-8) all up on their feet going insane, clapping for us and scremaing. I was all stoic "this shit is gay" but when I saw that I couldn't help but break into this huge smile and look up at the jumbotron. I shed exactly four tears of mourning in seeing everyone's family members go nuts and knowing that there was no-one out there for me except mr. Gaye. Then i got over it and was happy. What changed my opinion of everything was my letter to myself I wrote frosh year, that OW gave me. It went like this: Hello Stephanie, always, So then I realized...who the fuck cares if nobody else in the world gives a crap about me graduating? The one person who matters most in the world is proud of you and thinks you're the shit. Me! Me as a freshman, me now... I dunno, it's kind of freaky. Like my former self was fucking smart. Either I haven't really changed or I was realy good at predecting the future. Ohh wow! I wish I could go back and thank myself, because that letter was really sweet! It made me feel really warm inside. Everyone was crying but I couldn't cry, I was too happy that I'd never have to see anybody ever again. HA-HA. Anyway, Mr. Gaye picked me up, and took me to Sonoma Chicken Coop where I had a chocolate berry parfait (MMMMMMMMMMM OH GOD MM) then he bought me a bouquet of roses and gave me a gift certificate for 50 bucks at Bed bath and Beyond. So nice!!!!!!!!!! He's awesome! So now I'm home and I'm happy. It was fulfilling. It was better than I'd ever hoped it to be. |